*hugs* You're in my thoughts and I'm rooting for you!!

Also, yeah- I don't blame you for wanting to hit something reading that. Not only is it a poor representation of the character, but it's just a negative mindset to be presenting. It doesn't drive plot, it doesn't fit with the character, and that kind of thinking never helps anything. :T Blegh.

Anyway. I like and admire you. A lot. :)