whew

I'm glad it's today and not yesterday.

Yesterday was just one of those days that one is just glad to have survived, and be able to go on and live and do stuff like normal.

I am really grooving on normality this morning. Everything from feeding the baby at 5:50 in the morning to having my coffee maker spit grounds into my coffee. The sunrise was gorgeous this morning and all the better for the coo'ing, wriggling, happy bundle of boy, who promptly fell back asleep for another hour that I badly needed.

Whew.

Sometimes I think parenthood is all about getting reduced to ground zero myself, again. To take nothing for granted and to really enjoy, at a viceral level, all the things I started taking for granted when I was nothing but work and entertaining myself. Not an easy thing. Not always an enjoyable thing, no, but it is something wider than that.

whew

I'm glad it's today and not yesterday.

Yesterday was just one of those days that one is just glad to have survived, and be able to go on and live and do stuff like normal.

I am really grooving on normality this morning. Everything from feeding the baby at 5:50 in the morning to having my coffee maker spit grounds into my coffee. The sunrise was gorgeous this morning and all the better for the coo'ing, wriggling, happy bundle of boy, who promptly fell back asleep for another hour that I badly needed.

Whew.

Sometimes I think parenthood is all about getting reduced to ground zero myself, again. To take nothing for granted and to really enjoy, at a viceral level, all the things I started taking for granted when I was nothing but work and entertaining myself. Not an easy thing. Not always an enjoyable thing, no, but it is something wider than that.

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Ugh. I so do not want to work right now. My test results on one platform are different than on the other and one is a clear failure. Luckily, it's true. The application doesn't work on the one platform. Still, I'm faced with the fact that I'm going to have two different correct test results on two different platforms and my harness isn't built to have differences between the two.

Besides, it's raining outside and I so want to be out in it. It's terrible.

It's so nice to have the air wet with rain and the sky filled with gray and clouds. And Jet's a very happy baby who's doing his Leap of Joy in his exer-saucer and has peered at the long line of clouds on the horizon with appropriate glee.

Okay, the real reason I'm so sad is, I hate to admit this, because I missed a meeting I wanted to attend today. It was about usability testing at Xilinx and what we're going to do to get a really good process for doing it in place for our GUI's and getting a framework up to guide people that want to do it to their applications in place. No real work, yet, just all the setup, but this is when it's all exciting, all shiny and new and everyone's coming up with the cool ideas... and I missed it because I just got confused about when it was and not being at work there's no one to tap me on the shoulder and ask, "Aren't you going to this meeting?"

A pitfall, I guess, of working at home and telecommuting for much of my life. And there I was willing to sacrifice a whole hour of cel minutes to have a meeting at the same time John does. Next time I might just use one of line out of the two for the ISDN rather than hazard radiation head.

But it is kind of sad that I'm actually sad about missing a meeting, of all things.

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Ugh. I so do not want to work right now. My test results on one platform are different than on the other and one is a clear failure. Luckily, it's true. The application doesn't work on the one platform. Still, I'm faced with the fact that I'm going to have two different correct test results on two different platforms and my harness isn't built to have differences between the two.

Besides, it's raining outside and I so want to be out in it. It's terrible.

It's so nice to have the air wet with rain and the sky filled with gray and clouds. And Jet's a very happy baby who's doing his Leap of Joy in his exer-saucer and has peered at the long line of clouds on the horizon with appropriate glee.

Okay, the real reason I'm so sad is, I hate to admit this, because I missed a meeting I wanted to attend today. It was about usability testing at Xilinx and what we're going to do to get a really good process for doing it in place for our GUI's and getting a framework up to guide people that want to do it to their applications in place. No real work, yet, just all the setup, but this is when it's all exciting, all shiny and new and everyone's coming up with the cool ideas... and I missed it because I just got confused about when it was and not being at work there's no one to tap me on the shoulder and ask, "Aren't you going to this meeting?"

A pitfall, I guess, of working at home and telecommuting for much of my life. And there I was willing to sacrifice a whole hour of cel minutes to have a meeting at the same time John does. Next time I might just use one of line out of the two for the ISDN rather than hazard radiation head.

But it is kind of sad that I'm actually sad about missing a meeting, of all things.

rain rain rain

Rain rain rain, I'm so glad of rain. The swoosh and spray of cars slicing through black topped streets with standing water on them; the infinite variation of the sky; and the soft white noise of the water hitting the roof are all the things I love about rain. The air is soft with humidity, no longer sucking every drop out of every breath I breathe in, and it's an easement against my skin.

I so love the rain.

rain rain rain

Rain rain rain, I'm so glad of rain. The swoosh and spray of cars slicing through black topped streets with standing water on them; the infinite variation of the sky; and the soft white noise of the water hitting the roof are all the things I love about rain. The air is soft with humidity, no longer sucking every drop out of every breath I breathe in, and it's an easement against my skin.

I so love the rain.