Working My Way Out
Mar. 7th, 2016 01:32 pmI'm slowly figuring out how to let go.
Our church has pretty much become my life for the last two years, and despite the fact that it was hard work and really difficult at the end in a very not-fun way, it's been hard for me to let go. Realizing that a lot of that is because the moderator role was one that was defining me for that time really helped. I'm prone to living for others and others' needs.
So the real question for me to let go was, "What do *I* need and what do I really want to do now?"
Luckily, I seem to have been accumulating experience at answering these questions along the course of my life, and that experience seems to be standing me in good stead now. And I think that I finally realize just how important it really is that I figure out how to define myself independent of someone else's needs.
( And today, I actively starting seeking out, again, what am I for that is independent of the opinions and needs of other people. )
Our church has pretty much become my life for the last two years, and despite the fact that it was hard work and really difficult at the end in a very not-fun way, it's been hard for me to let go. Realizing that a lot of that is because the moderator role was one that was defining me for that time really helped. I'm prone to living for others and others' needs.
So the real question for me to let go was, "What do *I* need and what do I really want to do now?"
Luckily, I seem to have been accumulating experience at answering these questions along the course of my life, and that experience seems to be standing me in good stead now. And I think that I finally realize just how important it really is that I figure out how to define myself independent of someone else's needs.
( And today, I actively starting seeking out, again, what am I for that is independent of the opinions and needs of other people. )