Hmmm.... why a sword?

[liralen]

I talked with Jet a little, on the way to "The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything" movie about my desire to go learn the sword again. He said he's okay with it so long as I don't cut him any. I said, no problem, there won't be any edges on anything, really. Just sticks. He looked relieved.

I wrote the instructor's email address. The next meeting they have is Tuesday night. I'll probably go and check it out one way or another. It's bringing up a lot of questions in my brain. Why? probably being the biggest.

I think it's to find myself again. To see where those edges are of what I can do and what I can't again. To hammer out that form and then stretch it again. To have someone oppose me and see me in a completely different light than anyone else in my life sees me now. I miss those moments of clarity, where there is nothing but that single moment, reacting to nothing but what is and leaving the rest of the contents of my brain behind. I miss it not just from those years of fencing I did, but all those years of soccer as well those other years of tai chi.

And, amusingly enough, after a long talk with someone about the nature of adrenaline junkies, perhaps it's just to feed the adrenaline junkie in me in a more active form than video games. Now that I don't have the battles and stresses of work, perhaps I'm looking for a healthier alternative.

Comments

[incandescens]

And maybe that's the reason why I get prompts off springkink -- I like to stretch myself. :)

[liralen.livejournal.com]

Mmmm... that's a good reason. :-) I think that's why I joined the lj rpg, now, too. I need a good writing stretch, too. *grin*

[ross-teneyck.livejournal.com]

Now, see, to me, "Why the sword?" isn't even a question. It's one of those things that is a priori interesting :)

I never got very far with fencing myself, because I don't have the discipline. Alas.

[liralen.livejournal.com]

Mmmm... yes to the first. I guess as opposed to running or bikes or the gym.. it isn't really a question for me, either. *laughter*

I realize I do have the discipline to get faster, stronger, and better at it as I have in the past, which, I think, is why I'm kind of looking forward to this. *grin*

I just hope the body holds up. We'll see...

[diony.livejournal.com]

I hope you love it. I think I know what you mean, about those moments of clarity -- they are so very precious.

[liralen.livejournal.com]

Mmmm... yes. You do. :-)

We'll see.