Doctor's

[liralen]

I had a doctor's appointment this morning for my allergy and asthma, and I thought I was over my cold, but the breathing tests were really, really depressing. I'm back down to just 66% of my lung capacity even after a nebulizer with long and short-term drugs. With the asthma I've been having lately, and the cold, maybe that's the cause, and the doc took a look at me and said, "There's still an active infection going on back here, how about we give you an antibiotic?"

So I now have that, AND another asthma/lung capacity drug, and I'm oddly depressed.

I mean... I should be happy that we're addressing it, and that when I got back in two weeks, I'll probably be better off, but part of me was feeling all right, you know? And to have it brought to light that I'm really, really NOT all right just... bleh.

I should just write it off as more experience or something.



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And, yeah, in case anyone wanted to know. When I read a fic that has Ukitake whining, "Why me?" in it, I want to hit something. Really, really hard. Just so you know, because it is the stupidest question in the world, and solves nothing if he gets an answer, and only serves to take energy away from what can be done. I'm okay if he's angry or depressed at a setback or just tired, but that particular phrase really sets me off. He's a fighter, damnit, not a whiner. Thank you.
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Comments

[flit.livejournal.com]

I find it extra-hard when I get worse after I've been better, so it's not just you. I do vow that if I get better again, I will at least *try* to spend less time worrying about when I'm going to get worse again, and more time *enjoying* being better.

I am glad that you're dealing with the infection though, and I hope that brings your lung capacity back up! Blow out all the candles! (I don't know if your breathing test does that, but mine has a computer with a breath flow analyzer that puts candles on the screen and you try to blow them all out in one breath.)

[liralen.livejournal.com]

Ooo... there's a little fireman in mine... and the flames kind of waver.. *laughs and laughs*

I like candles better!! I should visualize *candles*... *grins*

Thank you, that helps a lot to know it's not just me that this hits hard, too. It hit badly last spring as well, I am not as good about being active during the winter, and I do lose some capacity from just not swimming and riding and all that... but... yeah, I'd been feeling better so far as the breathing, I thought, until this week with the cold.

That's a great point though. It would be more useful enjoying the time when I feel better.

Thank you!! I'll do my best!